Skiing is not for the faint of heart. It entails hurling yourself at top speed down a steep hill with finicky white stuff on two tiny sticks of wood. And then add the gates, longer, skinnier skis and higher speeds. Call me crazy but thats what I do every day. Besides make me ridiculously afraid of nothing involving physical danger, a damn good skier, and a strong athlete, skiing has allowed me to become self-aware, and it has made me grow in ways I would have never thought possible. I realize so much about who I am as a person, and who other people are and how to act and who to please and when and when not to listen. Skiing has allowed me to appreciate the life I live, and accept that even though i have faults, I can become a better person by putting the hours in.
This is a rough draft of what I have gathered in my many years (but not really).
No matter where you go, people will always try to tear you down. I literally mean, EVERYWHERE that you go, there will be the grade a assholes, and that they are, unfortunately, not just going to magically disappear after high school ends. So listen up (unless you are one of those assholes, and in that case, get off of my blog, I don't like you)- you can't let other people define your existence. You are you, and you are perfect the way you are. Don't feel like you have to change yourself just to fit the norm of the time. It's the people who dared to be different who enjoy life the most, because they live outside the lines, and they make themselves happy solely by choosing their own destiny. So be one of those people who aren't afraid to shine. And while it may suck in high school, it will get so much better, and you will like yourself so much more. Not that I know this speaking from experience, but I have seen a lot of examples of it.
When you find love, make sure it's the right kind. Now this is from experience. Love means that you feel as though the sun is shining on you. You shouldn't feel as though you have to change for this person. You shouldn't feel as though you are obligated to fix them, or put out for them. You should feel perfect and happy and admired and adored by this person. And if you ever don't feel that way, put the brakes on and get off of the train, instead of sliding headlong into something you can't control. When you really and truly love someone, when you say the words, you give a part of your heart up. And when it ends, the love just doesn't go away. It stays, but it's not the same anymore. I like to think that it keeps your heart ready for the next love, and that when the next love does come, it doesn't go away, it just stays there as though it is a pleasant little pool of warmth, and not the great sun it once was.
If you ever let yourself get pushed down by others, push right back, as hard as you can. Don't let them push you down any farther.
Express yourself every day.
Find friends who love you for who you are and who you fell comfortable and safe with, and surround yourself with them, that way, they can cushion your falls.
Dont be afraid to be alone. It doesn't mean you don't have friends!
Last, and not at all least. Do something you love, something really beautiful every single day. No matter how sucky the day is, make sure you leave your mark on the world in one way or another. It doesn't have to be big, just something that you can be proud of.
"so today is your day, your mountain is waiting, so get on your way!"
"In the land of Gods and Monsters, I was an angel."
"My mother always said I was an unusual girl, with no moral compass pointing due north, just and inner conscience that is as about as wide and as wavering as the ocean."
Oh the places you can go
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